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You said you’re not afraid of dying.
You said you’re more afraid of living.
I can’t keep up with the present.
And it’s the future that keeps me up at night.
I know better than to question my existence
but sometimes I wonder why the hell I’m living.
I’m not the cause of something.
I live for you and nothing.
You are the backbone to everything that I own,
the conscious in my mind, the gold on my throne,
the words I can’t speak, the lack of sweet dreams.
My world is falling apart.
I hope you’re proud of me
because I don’t think I would be.
Seeing your son with gun for a tongue
must be every parent’s dream.
I have potential but it’s the words I can’t handle.
They rip me apart with their judgmental standards.
Leave me alone, I need to keep control.
My world is falling apart and it’s my fault.
I told myself when I grow up I’d be the best that I could be.
But all I see in the reflection is a failure looking back at me.
I thought my life would be easy
and I thought that I’d be happy.
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So how did this happen? Was it in the city?
Up against the wall, with strangers looking at me?
I never thought I would be like this,
a self-centered pessimist,
but with a lack of common sense
and direction to get out of this mess.
You're just wasting your time.
I’m not trying to hurt you.
I’m sorry I lied,
I thought it would make things better.
Leave me alone.
Her voice still haunts me to this day.
Please don’t cry, you are the savior in my life
This heart couldn’t beat without you.
I am a liar, yes I am a thief.
I took shelter in your head and when you needed me I left.
I ran away, with your thoughts and imagination
Your voice and will to carry conversations
I hope you decline my apology
Then maybe someday we’ll see how much I need you.
Don't forget who I am
I know what I did wrong.
I’m still trying to be a better person
a better man for everyone
for everyone but me.
You say that I’m invincible
but I don’t feel that way.
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So listen clear and listen well.
You cast a curse but not a spell.
You took what meant most to me,
I'm chasing you but not violently.
Look at what the future holds:
a grudge, a smile, a hand so cold.
A plan that seems to unfold.
You're pretty but not dependable.
How can you say that you're not alone?
How can you say that? How can you say that?
If there's a chance for us to get better,
I say we should start over.
But how can I say that?
How can I say that?
Is it conversations you collect?
Your heart is what will protect.
You took what meant most to me.
I'm chasing you but not violently.
Look at what the future holds:
a grudge, a smile, a heart so cold.
A plan that seems to unfold.
You're pretty but not dependable.
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Beautiful saint,
let’s take a walk in my basement.
We can study how the rain falls.
Don’t leave, I’ll be alone again.
These walls can’t hold conversations
for the life of them.
Please stay and rejuvenate my body,
you got the lips to jump-start my heart.
Or like a battery charged
I’ll restart these feelings.
Oh look how my strings follow
this tune and the melody you produce.
Your voice is the product of something new.
If you really need to fight for me then go
if you really want to stay then let me know.
You have the choice, the heart, and mind.
We’re dying tonight, everything’s alright.
We met at the most inopportune time.
Is there a safe haven nearby?
I’ll be the lover, you be the ghost.
Let’s die tonight, everything’s alright.
You’re not the gold on my throne; you are the pain in my head.
You’re the ghost that sends me closer to death,
I am a demon, you are a saint.
Can two lovers stay that way or break?
And so tonight I will disappear from everyone who loves me.
I have a question for those who do:
Why do you? Why do you?
If you really need to search for me then leave.
If you really want to love me then just breathe
and think of something to occupy
your mind, I’m just a waste of time.
I had it all wrong from those looks.
If a thief gets caught, should he give back what he took?
The punishment is worse than it seems.
If I die tonight, will I wake up from this dream?
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Thank you for loving me. It’s something I’m not used to.
Connect with me with harmony to better myself
It’s impossible for me to vacate your mind.
I will love you until the day I die.
If you’re okay, then I’m alright.
There are so many things I’d like to forget
Just for a moment I’d like to be happy.
Your words are words, but they keep me company.
It’s the thought of us that make me feel lonely.
Don’t forgive and forget all the things that I did.
I know what I’ve done but I was just a kid.
But there’s no excuse for me to act the way I do.
No more tears, no one cares.
I’m here for you even though you’re gone.
Hold me close; scare the nightmares
that keep me strong.
If we’re okay, then the world’s alright.
I made your life harder than it should be.
Don’t listen to me, I’ve made mistakes.
I’ve fucked up more than once
but you still love me anyway.
It’s that kind of love that keeps me going.
Knowing you’re around makes life worth living.
Your words are words, but they keep me company.
It’s the sound of your voice that makes me less lonely.
Please forgive and forget all the things that I did.
I try not to sin but I’m still just a kid.
I’ll always be your son, and you’ll always be the definition of love.
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6. |
Contradictions Acoustic
02:53
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7. |
Mother Acoustic
03:43
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8. |
Basement Acoustic
03:36
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